There are no words in the content of this image. It is to be fully seen, absorbed, understood, deduced, invesigated, observed, and more generally sensed by you, the reader of this arguably useless compilation of words, which are themselves compilations of letters. There’s really nothing to be said, really. You can tell what’s going on pretty clearly, there’s nothing I should be explaining to you. Maybe you want to know more about how the image came to be, what my inspirations were, what my aim is, what the theme is, any symbolism or special meanings. Forget it. None of that is gonna happen, it’s just not. That’s the way it is. Listen, if you’re gonna keep requesting more information about this less than interesting photograph, you might as well go take your own pictures and make up some meaning. Might as well invent a backstory while you’re at it. There’s nothing to be known, nothing to be seen, nothing to be understood. You would probably have been better off had you just looked at the picture and called it a day instead off going on to look for more info. When will these people learn.



Last post I made up a term. Frequency of reapparition. I also said I would try to define it, which is a tough task in itself, but I will do my best. That’s as much as I can do, logically, physically, practically and metaphysically. Here it goes.

In short, the idea of thought reapparition comes from the fact that we can’t think two things at once. I compare this to the Pauli exclusion principle in quantum physics. No two particles can exist in the same exact location at the same time. They can’t occupy the same space. In the same way, it seems clear to me that the mind reserves space for one thought at a time. This doesn’t mean that thoughts can’t be close to each other in time. A string of thoughts can be very rapid, a series of 10 thoughts (arbitrary number) can happen in a single second. That’s the essential principle.

Thoughts come and go. They appear, disappear and reappear. If the mind is left on its own without stimulus, stimulation, influence from the outside world, it will continue to think. If you do this (for instance some types of meditation), you will notice all sorts of thoughts pouring in. Most of them should feel familiar. They are things you have thought before. Nothing new. No new thing. In this sense, they are not random. But in some senses, they are indeed random-ish. They seem to come out of nowhere, like a sudden visual sense of an old home, or a relative, or a type of food, place, animal, book or album cover, person, the list goes on and on, naturally. So why do we recognize where thoughts come from, if we could literally have and and every thought possibly thinkable?

My idea is that we contain a thought pool. It’s similar to a word bank that you get for grade school homework assignments. It’s a list (pool) filled with possible topics, themes or subjects of thought. Literally everything that has ever crossed your mind belongs or stems from somewhere in this pool. The pool is ever-changing, which means that some new subjects, or roots (maybe seeds, bases) can be created just like synapses are created in the brain. Seeds may also disappear, but they don’t do so suddenly. Each seed, or root, or base, has a level of importance. This is evident, because if you think about what you’re having for dinner or a problem in your relationship, one will have more weight than the other. You might feel a jump, or spike, in your heart every time you think about something incredibly important. This comes from a level of unexpectedness. If you’re feeling calm and suddenly the title of the book you need to write a thesis about by next week speaks itself into your faceholes (the ears), this is quite unexpected and you will jump a little bit. You will forget about it quickly, because you are doing your best to forget about it by doing other things, namely video games, walking, hanging out with people, listening to music or reading. But the thought will arise again soon enough. It will have varying degrees of intensity depending on your immunity, tolerance or resistance to the subject of thought.

Somniac Pool of reflection

Essentially, to come back to the original point of this post, the time it takes for the thought to reappear, that is the time between two spikes of the heart, or simply two thoughts, relates to the frequency of reapparition. All thoughts come in waves, that is the coming and going of thoughts and thinking. If throughout the day I have to plan a dinner and I know that I don’t have to do so until later in the night, then the thought will come to me at different times in different forms. Visuals of food, names of friends or stores, smell or taste hallucinations. So let’s say in a span of 6 hours I have 30 instances of thought (that’s an obsessive mind you have there) about a specific thing, the frequency of reapparition is 5 per hour. No unit, because the quantized unit of “thought” is not well understood or defined by anyone. Even not me.

One thing that’s important is that each thought won’t have the same weight. It seems that with troublesome or hurtful thoughts, the first many are more powerful than the following. It seems like the mind builds a certain resistance or anticipation to the subject, and deals with it better with every iteration.

Wow, that’s it for now. As you may be able to tell, I never edit my posts. I let the flow of thought (sorry, I know you’ve read that word enough times this post) take me over and I let my ideas develop. All the things written here are things I’ve definitely thought about before, but never had the chance to put down into words. So it’s a collection of my ideas related to the topic. None of this is fully developed, and there may be many gaps which makes it that much more interesting. It’s more than likely that I will develop on this further in future posts. Probably not the next one, though. The frequency of reapparition is not great enough for that. I have other, better things to put my time into. The next time I dive into this topic again, I will probably think about what factors go into this frequency. I will also try to give it a better name because it’s annoying to see the red squiggly line underneath the word reapparition every time I type it.

I hope you find the flaws in my reasoning, fill in the holes with your own thinking, develop ideas even further, are inspired by this type of idea development and expression, and can related to any of the convoluted ideas that I presented in this thing. Happy day, folks.



Why you should do many different things and types of things

It’s common knowledge I assume, that the part of the human brain called consciousness (is it a part of the brain or is it its own thing?) draws connections to experiences, sights, sensory stimulus and the like to create new points, or thoughts or experiences. The brain is constantly trying to improve upon itself. Lots of this work goes on in the background, without us knowing. Unconsciously. Subconsciously. For this reason, if you’re walking you might have a sudden realization on how you can improve an aspect of your life. One might call it a random burst or a sudden insight, but it’s not random at all and not so sudden after all. It’s something that’s been building up internally for quite some time, ever since you were in the kitchen and asked yourself if you drink too much milk. A week later, your brain will have gathered enough data from the week on your milk drinking patterns and every factor it knows of having to do with health and its effect on the things it finds important, namely well being, effectiveness, ability, strength, and other stuff. At this point it knows what the thing is you need to change to better or your life, or maybe it simply has a yes or no answer to the milk question.

Where am I going with this? Oh yes. The brain only draws from experiences. There’s a theory that says no idea is a new idea, it all comes from some origin point in the external or internal world. But I won’t get into that now. If I’ve been drawing faces for a year, I might have a sudden insight telling me how to draw an eye more accurately. That might be in a visual form, or it might come in words. Or if you’re really weird, it’ll come to you in a song and you’ll have to decode it. But don’t worry about that you’re not that weird. What won’t happen though, is having a sudden insight on how to draw a better dinosaur. Stegosaurus, to be specific. This is because you’ve never drawn a dinosaur before in your life. Maybe once when you were a small child, but your brain doesn’t take that seriously enough, so the frequency of reapparition (term that I just made up that I will attempt to accurately define by next post) isn’t high enough for insights to be considered worthy by the brain. But who knows, maybe you’ll see the dinosaur that you drew in your head and find a way to improve it, but that requires the thought to appear.

This is why you should have variety in the things you do. Because if you keep drawing faces for the rest of your life, all you will ever get better at is drawing faces. You will have a perfect face (on paper, not on your face) but you won’t be able to draw a sunset or a hummer or a treehouse or a snake.

Metaphorically and literally, try different media, colors, objects and subjects, languages, scales, people, types of people, groups of people, kinds of people, places, smells, areas, regions, locations, services, music, styles of music, genres of music, patterns, habits.

There are more things that you should try different types of, but that is the extent of the list that I could make up at this time. Try! Do. Feel? Go.

Happy day.

black hole 

Last night I was lucky enough to catch this picture of the nearest black hole known as V404 Cygni. The reason the entity is visible in this photo is thanks to Hawking radiation, invented by the well known Stephen Hawking. Before his theory about energy emission in black holes, these massive creatures were unphotographable. Luckily, we have this great man in the world, and if he continues his studies the way he has been up to this point, he might invent aliens some time soon.

The ring you see around the black hole is an effect of gravitational lensing. It turns out that there is a galaxy situated right behind the black hole that I saw with my own eyes. I couldn’t tell you which galaxy it is, because they all look the same. The light from the galaxy is traveling in all directions at the speed of light, and some of it is pulled in by the black hole and disintegrated, or maybe it disappears, or turns into solid matter because of insanely high gravitational energy, no one really knows. Some say that anything that goes into a black hole turns into its own universe. I guess hawking proved that this would be a glitchy universe. Matter would keep disappearing in the form of photon beans.

The light that is not sucked into the black hole is still affected by the black hole’s gravity. If the effect is just right, like knifes edge, then the light will be pulled just enough to be redirected straight into our eyes. Do you realize how exact it has to be for this to happen? It’s like life on earth and all that drama. Luckily, the effect of gravity is gradient and not sporadic or arbitrary. These words don’t mean anything except that there will always be a spot, somewhere (reasonably speaking) where the light is far enough but not too far away from the black hole, and far enough but not too far away from our eyeholes, so that it is pulled just enough but not too much so that it enters our eyeholes. There. That explains the ring in the photo.



Hot coal on a warm stove

That last line is what this photo makes me think of at first glance. The only reason being the color; the red in the background is so similar to the glow of a burning coal. The shadow would be the coal itself. There is no meaning in this photo. It is the way it is and no more. Relevance to your life is pure coincidence. The phrase hot coal on a warm stove brings about questions of relativity and the nature of dynamics. A warm stove can burn a hand, but it is cold compared to the burning coal. It reminds me of the idea of chasing a feeling, a state of being, a condition, a known place or state of existence. You keep pulling yourself upwards, but since the feeling derives from the feeling of being pulled up, you keep needing something “hotter”, analogically, for the upward motion to happen. Until the point where you are a warm stove and you’re in a need of a hot coal to bring yourself up in temperature. Is the answer to be content with stillness and lack of flux? is it about letting processes like these take place and accepting the downward motion as a necessity for the duality of up and down to exist?

One thing I want to say about this photo is that it was taken around the time of my departure of the place I was hanging out before taking the photo. In that sense it contains my experience leading up to the photo, and so if you have sudden visual stimuli relating to ducks, humans, rabbits, swans, rocks, trees, the sun, a body of water, the sky, cars, grass, flies, butterflies, fireflies, horseflies, ladybugs or grasshoppers, it’s simply because before this photo was taken (and after until I left) I was in a place where all of these things are actively present and in constant dynamic motion and interaction with each other. Fear not, you are not going crazy. And if you are, all the better to you. You can imagine being in a foreign environment inaccurately but in a pleasant manner.

During the taking of this photo, I was listening to Moon and Antarctica by Modest Mouse. I was very much in tune with the album. Except for two songs that I had to skip. I won’t tell you which ones. Before that I listened to Making Nothing out of Something. I don’t know if that’s the exact title but it’s something in that sphere. It’s the one with Interstate 8. I’m off to bed now. Gonna hit the sleeper.